Avoidance is the best policy. Really.

Time Practiced: Uh-huh.... right...... I'm sorry, what was the question?

Oh boy. It's been how many days since I've blogged? Yup, just as many days as it's been since my last voice lesson. Whoops. And guess how much practicing has been done in between then?

Perhaps I'm taking the "practicing by not practicing" mantra from last week too far. Probably, but I'm so exhausted from having such a full schedule for traveling and socializing that I'm surprised I make it through the week in tact. Sure, I could spend less time on facebook, but it's so mind-numbing it feels good.

In my exhaustion from over-socializing I declared on Friday this past week that I was taking the weekend off from socializing. I was so energized by fulfilling my goal of doing nothing this past weekend that during my half day at work on Saturday I was a maniac organizing and cleaning and straightening up the office. Productivity overload ensued as a result of "knowing" that the rest of the weekend would be mine to do absolutely nothing of importance. It all went downhill from there.

I went to drop something off to a friend and ended up having a two hour long conversation/get together. Fail. Sunday we went to the family farm to get some free veggies (which I tried to get out of because it was raining, the hubs didn't buy in to it) and ended up having to spend the day out there because my mother-in-law wanted to make a late lunch for us and we needed to spend time with my husbands grandmother. Fail. Okay, things we needed to do, but still it spoiled my goal of having a weekend of doing nothing with no one but myself and my husband.

I did, however, get Saturday night at least. It wasn't enough to feel refreshed, I really could have used Sunday too, but at least I got that little bit. The hubs and I did a yoga video together (which was funny to watch him do), I cooked us a healthy and super tasty dinner that was quick to make, and we watched two movies while I cross-stitched. See my handiwork? I've been working on this for almost five years... it's a stocking for my husband that I started right after we got married.

So, I blame not practicing on having to social on my two days off this past week, Thursday and Sunday. I did do something artsy- cross-stitching- but it wasn't singing. Funny story though, I keep wanting to sing right before bed while I'm reading The Artist's Way. Seriously, it's 11:30 last night, I'm reading that book, and I feel like I need to sing. Then I was listening to the radio on the way home from work tonight and Barber's Adagio for Strings was on. All the sudden I felt like writing poetry. Weird. But that's probably a good sign that I won't be avoiding practicing for much longer. Maybe Saturday night was enough "me time" after all.

Today's Recommendation: Take some time for yourself to rejuvenate. Even the thought of it coming is enough to recharge your batteries.

Barber, Adagio for Strings Op. 11

Giving Myself a Pat on the Back

Time Practiced: Hour and a half voice lesson today. Gotta love pre-scheduled practice time that you pay for. :)

My voice teacher informed me that I need to give myself a pat on the back today. I did a great job in my lesson, despite not "practicing" much at all since my last lesson three weeks ago. Apparently, spending time watching people sing arias on youtube and just doing random reading about my arias and not actually singing them did me well. Who knew that I didn't need to practice to progress! Victory!

Ok, so that being said, I guess I did learn something. Just because I'm not obsessively singing through my music doesn't mean I can't "practice" in other ways. In fact, my voice teacher is so in love with using youtube as a practice tool, when I got to his house today he was showing my accompanist a youtube video of Kristin Chenoweth singing "Glitter and Be Gay" (it's linked below as the song of the day for your listening/viewing pleasure). It was a fabulous performance, btw. All this time, I thought I was cheating when I used youtube to hear an aria or learn a new song and it turns out my voice teacher advocates it now! Ha!

In all seriousness though, it was a great lesson. We spent the lesson focusing on letting your body and mind be quiet while you perform so that only the most natural and real things happen and come out of you. It was great. Super hard for my scatterbrained self, but a neat experience to have- let's just hope I can duplicate it on my own. Plus, you always know it's a great lesson when you, your accompanist, and your teacher are all crying at the same time. At least, I think... ;)

I don't know. I might owe my teacher a coffee as it is our standing rule that there is "no crying in singing" (you have to say it like Tom Hanks did in A League of Their Own- "there's no crying in baseball!"). But you know what, I think since they were crying too, it negates my crying so I don't owe them coffee. At least that's the theory I'm going with.

Today's Recommendation: Give yourself a pat on the back. You deserve it.

Bernstein, "Glitter and Be Gay" from Candide performed by Kristin Chenoweth

Doing Somersaults

Time Practiced: Depends on what you consider practice? Does working on myself as an artist count? If so, about 1 hour. If not... well... I think we should count working on myself as an artist.

Despite my complete lack of focus, I have actually decided to focus on The Artist's Way exercises and program. After starting to read it, I've realized that perhaps my lack of ability to focus has to do with my being "blocked" as an artist. So, if doing this twelve-week program doesn't work to get my act in to gear and give me some artistic focus, then I don't know what will. Consequently, I'm giving it a whirl.

One of my assignments for this week was to list five imaginary lives that I would like to lead. Fun, right? Wasn't allowed to over think the exercise and wrote down the first ones that came to mind. Thought, for giggles, I would share them with you:

1. Naturopathic Doctor
2. Chef
3. Movie Star
4. Charity Gala Organizer/Event Planner
5. Olympic Gymnast

This week I am suppose to attempt to do something related to one of those imaginary lives, so as to pretend that I am actually living that life. Somersaults anyone? I think I am going to attempt to do somersaults. Forget anything more complex, I couldn't even do a cartwheel growing up. But a somersault, I should be able to do that. Heck, maybe I'll put together a little floor routine of jumping and twisting. Now to pick out music....

Today's Recommendation: Be fabulous at someone else's life for a day. You might have fun.
Chopin, Fantasie Impromptu in C# Minor Op. 66

Perhaps this will help?

Time Practiced: About 30 minutes, not all of singing, but practicing/studying music related things counts in my book.

Ok, so I need to get focused. I also need to feel creative again. I've been feeling artistically zapped, and not just in my music, but all across the board. A good month and a half ago I bought The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron. Bought it on a complete whim while picking up another book to read for work (I have a requirement to read six books to improve myself as part of my review- which is silly for an hourly job even if it is full-time, but I digress...). A week or so ago I almost returned just to save a few dollars, but since that never happened I figured I might as well start reading it, and if I didn't like it then I would take it back.

Holy cow, kids. This book must have some sort of magical spell on it for releasing and artist's blockage, because since I picked it up I've been having all sorts of "blockage" come out. I cried while reading the first chapter. I cried while reading the second chapter. And I'm already talking in detail waxing poetic about finding the purpose of my life. Okay, so some of that is normal for me, but still... this book is already affecting me and I haven't even begun to do the twelve week program!
That being said, I will be doing the twelve week program and can't wait to see if this book can help to focus me and keep me much less scatterbrained. Even though it can't stop the health issues that keep me from being able to be as fully engaged creatively as I would like to be (these last two weeks were hell, let me tell you- never ending headaches, bloating, fatigue, etc, etc), if it can at least help me stay somewhat engaged during those times and throughout I'm all for it. When I'm bored or stuck creatively I am one depressing person. This book promises to unlock your creative self so let's see if it works!

Today's Recommendation: Cry when you need to, it's good for the soul and gets the "uglies" out.
Smetana, Ma Vlast Moldau